Wednesday, November 26, 2014

One year ago

One year ago today (the Wednesday before Thanksgiving in 2013), I headed to the OBGYN because I was pregnant.  The thing is - I didn't know how pregnant I was - hence why I was going to the OBGYN.

One year ago today, I was tired.  I had a sleepless night the night before.  I remember it vividly.  I was up all night thinking about what was to come.  The Thursday before, I had taken a pregnancy test after throwing up earlier that week after changing a poopy diaper and yep - it was positive.  I was in the middle of interviewing for a new job.  We had only moved just a few months ago.  Only weeks away from finishing grad school.  Working crazy hours at work.  And all of a sudden I was pregnant.  I went in for a blood test on Monday afternoon.  That Tuesday afternoon, I called to get the results and the nurse told me that my HGC levels were REALLY high.  Meaning I was either around 3 months pregnant or pregnant with multiples.  Or so the nurse told me - the only way we would know for sure was a sonogram.  Hence why I didn't sleep a wink.

One year ago today, I arrived at the OBGYN and were waiting for my parents to arrive because they were off work that day and we had told them the big (and surprising to them!) news the previous night because I couldn't keep from them like I did the first time.  I went into the sonogram room by myself because they were running late.  I was scared.

One year ago today, this is what I got to see on the screen in front of me.

The sonogram technician who was SO sweet confirmed.  There was just one and I was 8 weeks along (she was also the same one that did Maddie's 20 week ultrasound and confirmed she was a healthy girl!).  I am not going to lie when I say that I breathed a sigh of relief that it wasn't twins.  It wasn't necessarily the twins thing that scared me - but the cost of two infants in day care.  I had just gotten the day care cost the Friday before and almost fainted.  

She told me "What a wonderful start to your Thanksgiving week".  I remember it like it was yesterday.  

Because she was right.  There are so many things that I am regularly thankful for, but for some reason we like to get pregnant around the same time of the year - so we have had two special Thanksgiving gifts.  One when we found out that we were pregnant with Charlie that we had been trying for several months to have and another when we found out we were pregnant with Maddie that completely took us off guard - and changed our world in the best way possible...both times.

I went to lunch after with my mom, dad and sister.  Just the original Bruns clan.  And we celebrated. A sweet little baby.  In the midst of a chaotic year and stressful times, God had blessed us with a pregnancy.  And while I am not going to lie, I was a little terrified....but as we know, God is good.  He's so good.

Because today - I get to kiss this smiling girl's face.  My baby girl, Madeline.  My mini-me.  The one that made me a girl mom and get to experience the process of growing, delivering and falling in love with a sweet little baby all over again.  She made my heart grow in ways I didn't think we're possible.

At almost 5 months old...I for one am so glad and so thankful for her.

It's pretty crazy how life can change so much in just one year.  And for us, there were so many changes...all of which we are thankful for.

I'm also very thankful there will be no pregnancy tests this thanksgiving.... :)

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